It is interesting how illness can cause the most vivid reflections of the self to occur. As this one came down with a nasty virus a few days ago, such was the case (but whether or not the aforementioned delirium was due to fever or to medication side effects is unknown.) Now as this one slowly recovers health and sanity, reflections of past events and contemplations of future actions are ever present. At some point it has even dictated current actions.

For example, this one realized how unclean he has been in the last several weeks because of the delirium. During one of the delirium episodes this one experienced, a rather vivid hallucination occurred of seeing assorted vermin (roaches, centipedes, etc.) crawling all over the floor of the bedroom. This one's room fell into a state of complete chaos as a result of work and the illness, and the hallucination prompted this one to do some cleaning, despite the ongoing fever. Laundry and linens were the order for the day, as was sterilizing any surface that might make others ill.

This one could tell more, but the fever is slowly forcing this one to succumb to sleep. But this one wanted to make the point that often, realizing what you have done, and what you need to do, are often the result of suffering the consequences of action or lack thereof. This one failed to maintain the upkeep of his own personal life, for the sake of the professional life, and now the consequence is an illness that is causing great reevaluation of the self. So this one calls on you to reevaluate yourself BEFORE such consequences arise, so that you need not suffer to realize your needs in the future.

With that this one collapses into insanity for the night and hopes the next hallucination he experiences is one of a beautiful women.........................................................................................................................